I seriously walked today. My cousin's son is in Austin at the State finals for the last time and I am in Dallas wandering around 68 acres of gardens. He is clearing the 800 meter in 1:57 and I am taking 120 times that to wander around almost 3.5 miles of trails.
He goes and preps for the one miler tomorrow and I come home and every muscle, ligament, tendon and joint just lock up on me. But I feel good. I feel as if I have done something for myself today. I wonder about the sanity when we have a Orange Ozone alert but I needed to get out. I needed to walk. I needed to take photographs.
Dallas Botanical Gardens
A little while ago I wandered over to Marinik's Blog and read the Open you Hearts posting. This is one of the first blogs I have been tempted to speak my mind on and have posted twice now to her. She has an uncanny knack to have a post that resonates with something that I have just thought about or experienced. But I like her blog and hope that if you have the time you will read it to. I will not tell you the premise for her blog. It is for her to in her pages but I admire her heart and resilience.
Well I think I am going to go and collapse here shortly. By the way I am making it longer and longer with the BiPAP mask on. I actually had a conversation with a quiet man at work about an hours over his CPAP mask. He has had it for years and now cannot even nap without it. He takes it where ever he travels and just listening to him and his experience made me realize it is a way of life and there is no reason to fight it. I actually am beginning to feel a hint of security and need to have this mask on at night and to me that is a huge leap in the right direction.
I wonder if they will let me bring it to the hosptial. Need to ask them. Then again do I want it in the hospital?
See ya!
I'm glad today was a good day for you.
ReplyDeleteIt's my first time on this blog, I've been visiting your other page.
What strength you must have.... and so great that you are writing about it, it does help a bit huh?
keep that positive energy going at all times, I know sometimes we all have low days and just feel like we want to give up, but fight that urge, and keep going, find things in your life that you are grateful for. :)
Great Pictures PC!
ReplyDeleteIt does help it. It actually comes from a little red haired angel and a guardian mother angel. I was so told off once it was determined that I was healthy enough to hear how angry they were that I did not share my pain and suffering.
ReplyDeleteI thought about it and then decided that this was a good way to journal what I was going through, being real with myself and making sure that the now brunette angel and great mother did not have to yell at me again. :)
It has just been cathartic for me to get it out, to share and to get feedback. I love it.
Thanks Kim. I see you are Island hopping in a couple of days. Yahoo! Tell everyone in Maui Hi for me. Love ya.
See ya!