Did some grocery shopping this evening. It is good for the soul and body to buy the right stuff. But Central Market had their usual band outside and it was a blues/southern rock style band. I liked the sounds so pulled up a chair and listened to a few before thinking....crap I got frozen stuff from Target in the car....bet it is melting away.
So I headed to the car. Now I have seen people do what I did, and have wondered how it is possible but....
I always know exactly where I parked and head right to the car. Well I did that and the car was not there. I stood there in the middle of the parking lot looking at where my car should be and thinking this is not happening. Why would someone steal my car? See I thought that before I thought I was maybe the one at fault. People walked by me, the band was playing in the background and finally something in me snapped and said this is not where you parked the car.
But I did not know where I parked the car.
After wandering around in a daze....I think I was terrified that brain cells where dying left and right....I found my car. Got into in and just sat there for a few. I have never had that happen and never want it to happen again but know that it will. I know the brain is missing a few synapses and well sometimes things are just not going to fall into the right place.
So we can call of search and rescue, reign in the military as I am back a home. Or is this my home? .....
You are afraid this is a result of the stroke and what you can expect going forward. But I am not making this up ... I was Ms. Memory, always knew where everything was. Seriously, the whole family came to me ... where's the this, where's the that. It seemed my memory was nearly photographic, I could always see in my mind where I last saw this and that and everything else. No more. I'm very serious, and I don't know why. I can't even find my own stuff, remember where I put it, much less theirs. It's kinda scary ... and I guess I'm just getting old and changing, but I don't like it one bit. I don't like to see the things I prided myself on, not be true about me anymore.
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Yeah I have no idea if it is me aging....or side affects of the stroke or what but if bloody well freaked the pants off of me. But I am somewhat mollified by the fact that you have shared that your perfect memory (like the rest of you) has has a setback. Thanks for making it a more human experience for me.
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Philip... you are lost! Your suppose to be in Maui.
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Miss you much!
Kim
I miss you too....glad you got a PC back (as in had to go buy one)....now you just got to figure out a way to get the other PC back....hehe!
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