Monthly Affirmation

may I be I is the only prayer - not may I be great or good or beautiful or wise or strong. ~e.e. cummings

Monday, September 28, 2009

The break

Well I just looked and realized it had been 12 days since I had been thinking out loud. Sometimes a break is what we need. Sometimes a step away and internal adjustment is just what is needed.

There are times when work builds up in such a dramatic way and I have learned that I am not going to sit by and wait anymore. Sometimes there has to be action taken and if it is not being done by those above you have to scream louder and to different people. Well I am finally being heard. That was one thing that occupied my world last week was giving ultimatums to people and waiting to see if the axe fell.

The other is that sometimes very stimulating people from your past can resurface. People whom you have thought about from time to time but never pursued a course of rediscovery. Those people can get the mind going in ways that were long forgotten. Good ways....making you look at, analyze, readdress and then consider pathways from this point forward. Cryptic speak you say.....I say that is just me.

I am who I am. I am a man who succeeds and fails. Or who fails and succeeds. I have loved and potentially will love again. I have hurt and will hurt again. In the trials and tribulations of my life I have faced the doorway to the end and fought hard against it. I will take missteps in the future and I will take leaps of faith and progress. I am on the sunrise of my life and sunset of whom I was. There are choices ahead that I must take, some easy, some hard. There are people I will meet and lose. This world is too small yet so vast and I want to see more of it. I am a survivor and a fighter. I am a winner and loser.

That was the thoughts that occupied my time away from here. I have so much more road to cover in my life, so many more goals to create and complete, challenges to face, yet they are the future to come and I am here right now. I am made up of whom I have been yet I have potential to become the sum of more than I am now.

I am on a path of recovery and change. I am a stroke survivor. I am me.



"The secret of health for both mind and body is not to mourn for the past, worry about the future, or anticipate troubles but to live in the present moment wisely and earnestly." – Buddha