I am so confused....I try to find more information and end up with more questions.
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What course of action do I take? Where do I go? What should I do?
All questions I know I have to answer but just don't know what to do at this point. I am trying to live but some times I just feel like I am walking uphill and losing ground against the wind.
I guess I have to go read more, talk to more people and get answers somewhere.
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Tammy Fajkus at 10:47pm May 5
ReplyDeleteReading your RL&L posts, I just want to encourage you to let the docs fix you, invasive though the procedures may be. Let go of the reins and let God take over. That's really what's hard about this for you, I suspect ... letting go. I could be wrong about that; I just want you to get well.
I pulled this out of my facebook page and added here as I needed to have my readers see if my wonderful friend was right - Pip.
Here is my response.....
ReplyDeletePhilip Cushing at 11:05pm May 5
Damn girl....you still read me like we were back in school together. Yep that is me. I am a control freak. I mean my fear of flying is not about flying but rather if the idiot up front knows that if he crashes the plane I am going to chase him through the after world. Now if I crashed it they it would be my own damn fault. I never felt so out of control as I did in the hospital on the 6th when I was being rushed into a cath lab and that was probably the catalyst for the full blown stroke as I was so out of control my body would not stop shaking. It scared them, it terrified me. So you are right...that is hard for me to do. But I am slowly learning. Repair, lean and live is what I decided. Maybe I should listen to my own advice.